the plan to stop taking anything at night has gone out the window.

i've been an absolute bundle of anxiety the past week or so.

long story, but the gist is: i've gotten an offer from another large well-known company for a pretty good role, with an amazing bump in salary.

i had a goal for myself of a certain salary marker by the time i was 35. at the time i set it, it seemed maybe possible but sort of a long shot. this job meets that goal...and then some. and i'm 6 months from 35. so that's pretty awesome.

there are quite a few upsides to the role. the only down side is that it means leaving my current company, which is a really famous company that has a ton of cache. it's a hip place to work, with a really fun culture.

the new place is also well-known, but way more boring. (know anyone who really cares about tax software? didn't think so.)

so yeah. the only downside is losing the "cool factor" of my current job, and going from working on products i really love to products i don't much care about. oh, and the small matter of walking away from like 80k in unvested stock options. yeah, there's that.

other than that, it's a no brainer. new job = nice people, casual atmosphere, good benefits, and what amounts to about a 40% raise.

my current team is fucking me over big time, so it's not that hard to contemplate leaving them. but when i went to hr and told them i was thinking of leaving, they went into overdrive to find me something else in the company that would make me happier.

so, i've been interviewing like crazy for an internal job on another team. slight pay raise, but the team seems just as crazy as the one i'm on now, so who knows. also, they are pretty much 100% against working from home, which is something i can do now and love love love. it's also something i could totally do at the other company.

i'm really pretty torn. do i take the job at my current company which seems like just a slightly different flavor of crazy? or the job at the new, boring company, with nice folks, partial work from home, an interesting role (even if the company itself isn't interesting), and a fat raise?

oh life. why must you be so confusing?