just got the news that we've had yet another unsuccessful iui cycle.

and also that the doc may want to operate on whatever the hell crawled up inside me and died, resulting in The Endlessly Draining Abscess (or TEDA™).

of course, an operation will likely mean at least a few months off from the iuis, which sort of sucks. it's hard to get back on the rollercoaster once you're off, and ramping back up with the drugs and whatnot is also annoying.

also, my eggs aren't getting any younger, people. apparently they're already half-rotten, so taking more time to do other stuff doesn't exactly sound smart.

but what else can we do? i need to get my insides all healthy before i can try again, so that's what we need to do, i guess.

i'm really starting to feel lately like a biological baby will just never happen for us. there aren't really words for that pain. so i won't bother going on about it.

i'll tell you this, though. the crushing blow of another negative pregnancy test should really come with some sort of free pass on cramps and headaches. really, now. insult to injury, i'm telling you.