holy cow, i feel like crap! i mean, i'm not dealing with morning sickness (yet). but my back and my head are both killing me, i am bloated beyond all recognition and my insides are one giant cramp.

truth is, i don't really mind. i'd gladly take all of this and more, and i'm sure i will.

my first beta hcg numbers were on the low side (34.3) and so i had to go back today for another blood draw. now they're at 65. not as high as i'd like to see, but it's almost doubled since they last time, which they say is the important part. the nurse said i shouldn't worry right now, some women just start out with low numbers, and the pregnancies are totally healthy. so. we'll see. i go back in four days for another beta. i am trying desperately not to worry, which is pretty much like trying not to breathe for most people.

for those of you that don't know or care about pregnancy related stuff, i apologize. i'm going to have to work at not just blathering on about that stuff. it's just that it occupies like 112% of my brain at the moment.

so let's see. in non-pg related news, i saw the borat movie tonight. i'm not entirely sure what i thought of it. there were definitely funny parts, but also parts which i literally could not watch, due to intense social-awkwardness-induced hyperventilation.

also, i really, really really do not want to go to work tomorrow. or ever, really.

i need to find a get-rich-quick scheme.