i'm not entirely sure what's going on, but i've been hit hard with major anxiety attacks in the last two days.

like, scary, hyperventilating until i pass out on the bathroom tile, dry heaving into the toilet, kinda panic attacks.

breaking down in the car on the way home from work and not feeling capable of driving, so having to pull over and cry so hard i almost choke, kinda panic attacks.

i'm concerned less because it's happening and more because i can't figure out what it's about.

and whoa. just as i wrote that, i looked up at the date.

tomorrow is the one year anniversary of the phone call where my dad told me he had cancer.

you think it's something as stupid and simple as that??